Organ music glides along the floor while choir voices float through the air. Paper rustles softly as worshippers find the correct spot in the program. Evensong at St. Paul’s.
I follow along as best as I can, the choir music is beautiful but I have trouble understanding all the words. A section of a song are all to familiar, the Lords Prayer. As I read the familiar lines, a new thought slips across my brain.
“And forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.”
There’s been a lot that’s happened in the past few years. Life has proven it’s ability to throw a good curve ball or two. I like to think that I’m a fairly forgiving and easy going person. Sitting in a chair, in a beautiful cathedral, I wonder. Have I been forgiving people? Yes, I’ve gotten much better at not letting difficult and frustrating situations always get the better of me. Yet that doesn’t mean I’ve completely been forgiving. The golden rule says to treat others as I wish to be treated and I do my best to live that way, to be as warm and caring as possible. Something about the line “Forgive us as we forgive others” got to me.
I can choose to let the frustration I have at someone else’s decision on how to handle a situation get the better of me. I can choose to let it affect my work performance. I can choose the opposite as well. One of my coworkers always told me to “Assume positive intent” when working with others. To assume that whatever action was taken out of a positive place and not purposely to hinder. Frustration and anger still get the better of me at times and I have to make sure that I don’t have malice towards the person when that happens. To simple say that they’re forgiven, either to them personally or to the universe. Forgiveness starts with me, in my heart, even if I never tell them because it’s not always possible to forgive face to face.